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life is amazing
i love what God has been doing in my life. even though i'm "out of commission" for the time being, i'm really enjoying my time off. no school. no work. just living. i'm slowly making new friends (not like my old friends aren't good enough) i'm remembering who i used to be and looking forward to who i'm becoming.i'm a changing woman and when i reunite with old friends you will see how i've changed, how i'm growing up and growing into the Lord. I went on a mission to Mexico and built a house for a family whose little shack of a home with no bathroom got wiped out by a fire. just being part of a team that is doing something in a time of need and not just sitting around being saddened is so amazing. it makes you feel like there is so much more to life and so much gratuity in helping someone that is in dire need.After we built the house for the family, the mother hung onto the bible that we gave her like it was the best gift of all. She said that when the fires came and wiped out her house God told her that she was going to get a home that was better than the one she had before. To her standards this meant a shack with a bunkbed, a cot, and a dining room table. Their toilet is a hole in the ground... Probably why Mexico smells like sewage everywhere you go and everytime it rains.Now I get the opportunity to go on another mission down to Mexico and we get to play with the kids and build a new soccer field. I'm so grateful for the opportunities that are coming my way. I get to serve the Lord better than I ever thought I would. Who woulda thought 6 months ago, or even 2 months ago that this is where I'd be?I'm reevaluating my life and judgement will be passed. No one who has known me in the past 2 years would think that I would have become conservative...trusting in the Lord...optimistic...selfless...selfless... haI've been so selfish for so many years. focused on Me... my needs... my wants... there is SO MUCH MORE TO LIVE FOR. someone that is so much greater than us and people that have it so much worse than us. we need to stand strong against pop culture, instant pleasure and simple entertainment. I don't care if I get called a God freak. or if people think I am obsessing about God or if people start to call me narrow minded.. The thing I am most saddened by is the American culture. the way we live is selfish, competitive, money hungry... and so much moreMost of us (including me) have never been to a 3rd world country, or even a second world country and seen how good we have it. we all take it for granted and we think about the next thing we want to possess or the next television show we want to veg out in front of. We don't work hard out in fields and get paid near nothing for it. we all have huge houses, lots of stuff and we still talk ??? about how we have nothing, want more, and how life is too hard.we are attracted to chaos, drama and entertainment. i want to travel the world and see how other cultures live. i want to see the scary and true reality of life outside of the united states, life outside of big cities and life out where the people have nothing. i want to bring hope to poor families, and see how much more hope those families have than i could ever imagine.i want to meet little boys that can't deny god no matter what circumstance and high school girls like the one in Columbine that when asked if she loved God she said yes and got killed for it. I know the path I'm going down is narrow and there aren't going to be many people that share my new-found values along it but I don't care because this is my new life. I want to bring hope to people who are scared, I want to spread the love of God among all his children including the ones that don't believe there is a God. I want so much more out of life and something so much different than I ever would have thought i would have wanted. Life is beautiful and it is worth living. especially if you have God in your life.
Whatever your tribulation is, know that you can come to me and ask for help. I can be your shoulder to lean on and I will speak to you the only way I know how and that is with pure love. God is with you, even if you don't know it.Live life with God by your side, talk to him about whatever you want, and give your neighbor nothing but love.Forgive and Forget. Beleive you will receive and then you will be granted.and so much more...
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