Radiance

By: jaideayhunfulsai Mood: excited Date: 03/07/2009 07:14:03 Music: sweep me away

Yesterday was a lesson I have learned. I have to agree that I need others for me to realize the importance of living in this world. For why do I really exist. Is my existence a telling of my destiny? It is just a plain fact drawn in my  palms. For so I wish to know what is it really that I am planned for. I fail to realize the simple things in life that made me  to who I am now. Little things- such as the sun, the rain, the dewdrops and the smiles that made me feel alive amidst the desperation calling out of my bored heart. Quite hurt from all the expectations and pressures others have to impose and why is it our responsibility to understand others always? Why can't it be our world world, our own desired destiny, our own fate that we could draw in our hands.

Boredom. This which I experience has been a sore in my mind. Nothing would I think that would replace my feeling until when I came to the realization of being lost all of the sudden. Why did I ever think I should write my own destiny... a planned script of what has to become and has to come. That would really a boring life wouldn't it?

Full of surprises and little colorful crayOns on top of it. For which I could always pick what crayon to use as to what mood I'm feeling now. Green? My favorite color doesn't fail me.. it revives me and reminds me of what being sensitive to others mean. It's a puzzle I have to finish, finding what color would fit to my emotions and learning how to mix them all up. It's like some kind of artwork where I would be doing shades and everything I could possibly think of.

Yes, an artwork is all it is.

 song for today: sweep me away by kari jobe