It has been months since I visited this site.. but tonight i just want to burst out what i feel.. my head is spinning. I'm not drunk that's definite but i'm having a hard time deciding.

During this semester, I'm having second thoughts of pursuing with my chosen course which is nursing. I feel I don't belong and it seems like every day passes.. every subject is blunt .. before me.  It's like, I don't have any passion and love for my course.

I don't know. . I feel alone. I observe that I am withdrawing myself from my family. Upon arrival at home, I go directly to my room and lock-up. Sometimes, I don't eat and just stare blankly at my ceiling for the rest of the night.

I don't know what's bothering me. I am starting to lead  praise and worship singing during Sundays. During my first times, which is like, 5 months ago, the fire was burning. I was eager, enthusiastic and on the go for doing my ministry. However, for the past Sundays, I'm not feeling the same feeling I had. My mom approached me and told me that my emotion was ruling over God's work. I didn't know what to say but to stare at her and asked myself, "Why?" I don't know what to do. I feel that my companions in school wouldn't know what to say to help me.

I feel deserted and starting to fade from who I was then.. Questions are all I am filled with.