DATE: 11/05/2007 21:55:36 / MOOD: don't know

I have been having struggles, evaluating all my friendships. I don't think its just me, but there always comes a point in my friendship with things start to get bumpy. Normally I can just shake it off, but if it's one of those roads where the bumps start overlapping one after another until all you can hear is thud-d-d-d-d, i know. its happening again. let me explain:my style of friendship is one extremly close friend, and all others just can't match up as much as him/her (usially a "her") i dont expand beyond them. they are my saftey, no one i have as much fun wih. that doesnt mean i dont have other friends,  it means my first choice is them. the problem: this sucks for all those other hopefulls that i had a chance to become just as close of friends. also, when those bumps, thud-d-d-d start, then i am advised by those i trust to let this friendship go, its not working. so i do. then im left with no friends for several months, filled with heartache missing all the times i had with that single friend. but we dont have a smooth friendship anymore, so i move on. eventually i have a new bff for about 1-2 years then it happens all over again. so whats my point of this blog? its starting again. i sat in my room crying, thinking i cant go through this anymore, there has to be another option. i can this friendship out but something has to change. i know neither she isnt drifting from God. I know im not (well not enough to hurt our friendship). so what are we doing wrong. after wiping my tears, i decided to get real with my thinking, find a solution. well, something i havent done too much with my past friendships: i gave it up to God. I asked him to show me what needs to change. i realized, with God's grace, that I have very little respect for my bff, i target her for all my stress, and i nit-pick at every thing she does as some sign of "being a bad friend" that i miss out on the truth. i am a sucky friend right now. so that isnt fun to realize, but the good new in all this trouble is i most likely wont lose my bff, and a little while ago i prayed for God to mature me, and what i learned from evan almighty is that God doesnt magically answer our prayers, but give us the opportunities. he isnt going to let me wake up 1 day mature, but give me the opportunity to act out of love and maturity. hopefully i am doing so.

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DATE: 10/25/2007 10:27:07 / MOOD: full of life

So I am listening to this song from Tarzan, my second favorite movie for those who dont know. Seriously, i am in love with Tarzan and not to mention the feriocious Simba. RAWRRR haha. Man I feel like dancing but instead I am writing. I. Now I am listening to Walk On by U2. Hahah I made my very own music video to a U2 song. It was quite hilarious if i do say so myself. OK on to a new song. Its The Way by Telecast from the album of Beauty of Simplicity. The first time i heard the beauty of simplicity...:-) I was on my moms bed listening to the tv radio (in the 900 channels on your tv there is music if you didnt know) and doing homework when that song came on. I was so moved I got up from the bed and started praising God right then and there. By myself with my homework sprawled across the bed with music from the t.v. It was the most beautiful experience ive ever been apart of. At that moment it was safe to say that I love you Jesus. Sometimes we arent so sure? Or is it just me? How do you know when you are in love? Anyway I am listening to Wouldnt it be nice by the Beachboys. Haha on my way back from visiting WA. D.C with my 8th grade class, a friend and i listened to this song. On that plane ride, my friend kathleen, who wasnt christian, told me how much she admired me for ing to my beliefs and standing out. I never forgot that....changing the song to Gone by Switchfoot. I remember when Switchfoot became big I would SCREAM this song in the car, my voice cracking and becoming hoarse because i was in LOVE with this song. GOne like yesterday is gone, like history is gone, just try to prove me wrong, and pretend like your immortal ahhaah. next song: yesterday by the beatles. you know my friend hayley and i always say" hey jude, dont make it bad, take a sad song and make it better" whenever we know the other one is upset. its our way of cheering eachother up. I am so grateful for a friend like that. Thank you GOD! Well you must be tired of reading, so clicking the submit button now:-)

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DATE: 07/25/2007 18:27:39 / MOOD: up

Hahaha so I mentioned someone I know that is emo to my grandma who I am visiting right now in Ridgecrest, CA (google map it) and she had never in her life heard of an emo person and wanted me to explain. All I could say (since I am the complete opposite of emo in fact right now I am wearing  a sun dress lol) was that they wear all black and act like they hate the world. ( i avoided mentioning the serious emo's who tend to be depressed and even cut their wrists cuz gramz would of flipped out but i eventually told her and she did in fact flip out). So I ended up looking it up on the internet showing definitions and pics. Here's our convo:

Emo? I've never heard of it. What is it?

Well it's like a style where they wear all black and act all mean and stuff

But what is it?

Umm well it stands for emotional.

Are they emotional?

Well a lot of them tend to be depressed.

Oh, dear, why is your friend (the one who started this convo)  depressed? And they wear all black?! That's just awful!

No, it's the style They just act like that. (me trying to avoid my friend's private and personal issues)

Why? I don't get it. They should just be the way God made them. (amen!)

Hah yeah well it's just a style like someone would wear a dress or something.

But they wear all black?! That's awful!

Here let me look it up on the internet... (Hestitating to say this...) But dont look it up on the internet...cuz...it might...well show someone cutting their wrist.

OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!! Why is your friend depressed?!

No, no, no she's emo, grandma, it's a style.

So we looked it up and it said a style relating to emo music and then it described what an emo person looked like so we looked it up and she said it was  so ugly and awful and she didnt like it. I kept insisting that it's a trend among teenagers and it's really big in SD not so much in the tiny town of Ridgecrest and we are all different but she kept saying it was wrong lol. Hahaha so there you go. That is officically why emo peeps and gwammas DONT MIX. :-)

 

Kat

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DATE: 06/23/2007 11:20:07 / MOOD: excited

Copy and paste this quiz and fill in the apropriate answers:

1.What is your full name?

2. How old are you?

3. Do you know the color of my eyes? If so what are they?

4. Have you ever had a crush on me? If so, do you have a crush on me now?

5. What is the funniest thing I have ever done?

6. On a scale of 1-10, how would you rate me as far as being a good friend, 1 being horribly horrible and 10 being the best friend I've ever had and more?

7. What is the thing you like most about me?

8. What is the thing you dislike most about me?

9. If we were at school together, what type of people would I most likely hang out with?

10. Do we have the same beliefs?

11.Would you say I follow Jesus in every way that I can?

12. Do you see any areas that I could improve in as far as the previous question? If so, list them.

13. Would you say that I am more funny or smart or athletic or friendly?

14. Do you want me to take this quiz for you?

15. Who is your number one man?

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DATE: 05/31/2007 21:33:40 / MOOD: happy

So i wrote my mom's b day card because tomarrow is her b-day. It was so funny that I had to share it with the world:

"Yo Chicken. You rock my socks! High five? No? Ok. So in simple ghetto terms, let me lay out on the grill wokayup. Why? Cuz its goin' down. I think you'se ai'ght, yo. You be workin' whatch ya momma gave ya. You know you got it goin' on, fo shizzle. When I be all up in yo grill, I can see you cool and tight. Ballin!

Long live the queen [kathryn card signing trade mark. this part in parenthasese was not in the note]. Word.

Love, yo homeskillet triscuit biscuit, brotha from anotha motha, Baby Kanks [nickname my sister's friends gave me:-/]

 

 

Hahahahahahahaha SOOOO FUNNY....well at least i think.

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DATE: 05/17/2007 15:33:15 / MOOD: bored

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Helllo whoever is reading this. Not much is going on. I have to write an essay about the similarities between Rome and the Han Dynasty during their heights and downfall in the 100 A.D....FUN. So because I am a little on the bored side, why don't you ask me for my screen name so we can get the chat on. Or you could leave a comment on my pictures because those are slacking a bit. You could even put a comment on my page or on this blog or even send me a message. Options, options. I am really tired. I have gotten anywhere from 6 to 7 hours of sleep for the whole school year. But I normally make it up on weekends but since it is thursday and there hasn't been a weekend in a while, I've been really tired. So PLEASE suprise me with a comment or gift at school if you want lol. No I don't care all that much. This blog is lame so I am going to write a better one later. Just wait...you'll see.

 

 

♥,

Kat

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